im scared ..

I fvckinq miss bi now ) : i wish he's riqht beside meas now D :
Bi , i quoted this portion ferh euuhs , euuhs nnd onlaye euuhs .

Bi , its 9 days before our annivasary .. i felt the coldness euuhs qave meas recently .. i'm so scare euuhs would leave meas euuhs knoe dhat ? i just happened tuu feel dhat , euuhs are ad a far end .. nd , i'm left alone .. eurh smses tuu meas are liek , cold , cold , cold... euuhs didn't mit meas ferh two days.. euuhs didnt asked tuu mit either .. whns i asked euuhs , euuhs said euuhs are busy .. last tyme , euuhs would try eurh best tuu come .. even is ad niqht , after eurh events euuhs would come , burt now , euuhs didn't even asked tuu mit neither cor meas tuu toked on fone tuus. Bi , duu euuhs knoe how i feel now ? i didnt knoe whart tuu duu , boy , had i did anythinq wronq this tyme ? i told euuhs tuuday everythinq , how i felt tuus. burt all euuhs told meas was , sorry , i'm really busy .. i asked euuhs , busy on whart , euuhs told meas , nothinq special on.. duu euuhs knoe how hurt i can beas ? this sentence is just liek , a mother losinq her own child .. losinq her hopes .. i'm really scare tuu lose euuhs .. euuhs didn't even cored meas tuu toked anymore , last tyme euuh duu .. whns each day passes, i think really hard , in fact is qettinq out of my nerves , how cns i make euuhs happy , how tuu beas satisfied.. burt , it seems so hard tuu think .. Or , have euuhs found another girl euuhs are fond of ? I'm really feelinq the hurt as each day passes . i just cunch stop myself from thinkinq recently .. boy , euuhs are liek my everythinq now , burt yet , euuhs are abandoninq meas now .. why ? or eurh feelinqs faded , im really scare .. bi .. iluvveuuhs , burt how much euuhs luvv meas now ? 1/4 ? 1/5 ? 1/2 ? none ? or as before, full ? i'm once in eurh heart , the one and only , burt , do i still takes up dhat space ? or been replaced ? sorry , im really tired , im too scare , im too worried .. thinqs seems qoinq wronq .. i quess , my tears now is flowinq as much as a runninq tap .. bleedinq as deep as an ocean , as painful as a sufferinq dead girl .. leavinq full of sorrys , regrets. feelinq sorrowful .. tkcares' my luvv one , Mr O. ♥

haish , tuuday , went qeraldine house .. i broke down nnd im ad dhe verqe of faintinq liek nows ? haish , thnks qeraldine nnd ben ahkor .
chantel nnd karyn came after dhats , thnks babez. ♥
thouqh , i've neither mood or appetite, euuhs quys tried eurh best tuu cheer meas up nd all.

well , tomorrow's qonna bea qeraldine sist akl nnd ben ahkor's 15th month annivasary .. euuh twos urh , lasted since 12/03/08 already.. last lonq alriqhts my dearest sist. nnd ahkor , treat her well urhs. after celebratinq dhns come find meas buhs. i maybe nort qoinq wit euuhs twos lurh. euuhs should knoe why..
nnd , our sistership is vehr lastinq , luv ♥

Chantel Tmm/Sist, thnks ferh dhats lolipop , : ) Thnks . last lonq wit my qan husband , nelson. lastinq enuff alreadys . since 16/01/09. 5 month alreadys . Luv euuhs sist . Up nnd lows , just qonna tolerate , he's a qreat boyf , great fwen . trust meas , he's really nice . all dhe best , sist . ♥

Karyn bei , cheer ups toos. thouqh euuhs are down tuuday , euuhs still tried tuu cheer meas up .. thnks , luvv euuhs . last lonq wit joshua thouqh is only been a month .. leave dhe past behind , rmbr , he's a nice quy , never missed it . luvv sista ♥

♥♥♥♥♥' gabriel , luvvvvv,